She is worn out. After 2 weeks of traveling to and fro and meddling with additional workload of the household chores during the period of mid years, she doubts her own ability to fulfill what she has to do for this final year. Subsequently, such routine will persist. At times, she felt like giving up and she did, to her mid years because her time was spent on her mum, her brother, sister and family, to the extent that she just disappears to go home straightaway. She knows that she got to be strong and show a positive front to her mother because it aches to see her being worried as well. It is a year for her to be double stressful because one is taking A-level and one is taking O-level. She can never sit down peacefully to study or do anything because she will be needed to help out with something in the next moment. It is such a crucial period and the one above wants her to experience this during this time. She will still work for it but if it turns out to be deficient, it is probably destined. The only reason for her to appear enthusiastic and joyful is her mates who understands her plight. Yet, she is conscience-stricken and extremely apologetic for not being able to remember significant events for the peers she treasures. She has to commit in so many things and it is not possible at all. Not possible...she's just Melissa.


Ahhhh, on a positive side, I'm learning how to be a mother of 11 children.
All these will be over and Mummy will get well!

MIA-ED for a long time :/

I'm cynical, bothered, fretful, aimless, troubled, don't know what i'm doing. I'm looooooosssssssstttttt.

Its Vday today and it was JJ night ytd.
This did remind me of the fabulous times back then. We took a mini og photo, was searching for Jolyn before this, lol. That would make 6 of us. I can't believe i was dancing and jumping like omg with them just like last year, or probably 100times the energy. All of us were delirious and it didn't seem like Friday the thirteen at all. The memories will not be obliterated.I saw these three kids at jj night too. I just realised they went to china for ayl with jj people. I was their sec 1 fac:'( The moment they stand up, i figured that time make people grow. In fact, i saw many people like sandy who disappeared midway during pae period. Photos of her later;)


Oh god, how can i move on when i don't know how? Sometimes, its frustrating to know that you do not have much time left and you're still not doing anything about it.

I am aware of my impending doom. The five categories of life will be damn awful. I may be superstitious but i know that it is going to be an unfavorable year unless i stay optimistic and make all failures/setbacks/unfortunate events something to stimulate me to move on.

Its a weekend again! Sat was spent with exschoolmates and current schoolmates. Went to Mr Lee's house in the afternoon, then went to watch Bride Wars with fred, robert and jianrui. Went to BoonYik's place at night. Met auntie which i have never seen before though shes my auntie. LOL. Alright, we played 'games' again like what jack said. I lost money:'( Took the last 172 home.





Sunday, retarded family wanted a retarded outing to the bird park. Its retarded because my bro's still superrrrrrrrr excited when he actually went last year. Its retarded because my mum scolded the pelicans for eating a dead fish. She-talked-to-the-bird. My dad tried to hypnotise a bird. He-talked-to-the-bird. My bro bought a bird toy. He-talked-to-the-bird toy. Oh shit, what's happening to the world.


Gross mother.

I like this shot!







I can't believe i spent my day in the birdpark.

Woh woh woh i'm back. From New Year, from every nonsense which happened, kinda MIA for sometime. My com crashed AGAIN! Not because i watched porn okay! So yes, Chinese New Year finally came, the one i've been constantly thinking about since the start of school on Jan 12th. I've been thinking about holidays all the time. So i'm anticipating the march holidays, yes. Okay, new year, so far so good, quite pleasant.

So there was my cousin, her boyfriend, jacklyn, crystal, JJ, Shaun Shrimp and Fernanders.

Then we went to Lionel's place. Thats when i dabao all the cakes home as my breakfast bento.
We were playing with jack's shades.


Yes, playing cards.
JJ!


My cousins who live in Australia and returned with superrrrrrrrr deep American accents.